As always at the minute it all comes down to relationships - you may think when you're single that being in a relationship would be the best thing - and while you would be right it still comes with its difficulties.
While me and my other half have been having a good time lately, bickering to a minimum and having a nice time things will always play on you're mind.
Some might say this is what I get for being so serious about the relationship, that I should just have fun and not think about the future, but I've always been someone who thinks about the future - a lot. You're futures become intwined with each others when you get that serious and you have to not only think about what you want to do but what the other person wants to do, and of course be willing to sacrafice, which I am.
I worry about the future. I am easily unsettled by not knowing what I'll be doing in a couple of years time - which I don't. I have my own plan but I don't have 'our' plan. Not that I'd rush him to make any decisions - it's my issue not his, I just have an overactive mind and unstable emotions.
I think another contributing factor is I've gotten really bad at being on my own - me and my boyfriend basically live together in the sense that we stay together every night other than when he is away on some weekends. The only difference between us now and living together is we don't shower in the same place or cook. And I've gotten very used to this - to minimal alone time and seeing someone almost every minute which I've come to like. I don't do so well if I'm left on my own for long. So when he does go away I find it very hard - I'm on my own for three days and two nights - I won't lie I do hope that he misses me enough to re-think the army but I try to not get my hopes up too much, and obviously he wouldn't base such a big decision on me, many other factors come into play.
Anyway I'm starting to ramble - here's a picture of me and my boyfriend - he'd probably kill me if he knew I'd written this!
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